Binging

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I realised what it is today. When that sweet chocolate or when those salty chips hit my mouth, my mind goes completely blank of my surroundings, completely empties, and then I just savour that moment and go "oh that tastes amazing". That's all it takes. My whole body and mind takes over. I am not controlling any of this. But that is the problem isn't it.

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